Today I will attempt
to write something new and different. I feel inspired to do this. I am
sitting here today in University of New Hampshire and have some time to
sit and reflect.
I want to begin by
saying that there is so much going on in the world. I meet people all of
the time that are either for or against what is happening in the world.
It seems that you will
get a different view of world affairs from all parts of the world. People
see things differently because of their culture, language and whether or
not they are prosperous or are suffering from financial losses, poor
crops, poor technology etc.
There can be many
different reasons why people become aggressive or war-like also.
If I go to one country
people there might not smile very much, they are too serious, and so if I
smile at someone they may get the wrong idea.
But most people in the
world are not war-like they all want some sort of peace and do not want to
The average man in the
world is like any other, he usually just wants to survive, to earn a
living and support his or her family. Most people are seeking some sort of
love, either love from their spouses, kids, siblings or just friends. They
do not want to be war-like. They do not want to fight the world. So what
is wrong with this scenario? What do we live the way we do? Why are we
here? Where are we going?
Will we find the
perfect mate? Why even do we seek a mate?
I will start with the
We are first a spirit,
and when we incarnate we are thrown out of balance. While in the spirit
world we have perfect balance, but when we come into this life we are
We incarnate either as
a man or woman. When we are in the spirit world we are both male and
female, or sexless. When we are both, we are perfectly balanced. But
because we desired to become in the image and likeness of out creator we
have to incarnate into a physical body. When we do this we are thrown out
of balance by becoming either a male or female person.
We spend our entire
earthly lives seeking balance, seeking the half that is missing, and in
the amount that we find this half, that is how happy we will become. No
more or no less.
We keep seeking the
half of ourselves through another half person. Because we are a half
person we think the other half, if found, will balance us. This is because
we just donít know. We go through countless lives completely unaware. When
after eons of time we awaken and become aware. Awareness is the key.
Awareness is the gateway. Awareness through love can open any door, solve
any problem, and end all wars. How can we find this awareness?
By taking a Vision
Quest, means going into the wilderness to seek within yourself to find
your destiny, or to seek your purpose in life. The Creative Force is the
Life Force. The Creative Force is in all things, a part of all things, and
works through all things.
When you begin to tap
into this all knowing force of life you will be able to know all things,
and to demonstrate that knowing into something new. Something that is
unheard of, something that was not known previously.
You will be looked at
as a genius, one that knows and one that demonstrates Cosmic
But your true purpose
is to live a better life, to leave the world a bit better when you leave.
Better for your loved ones, your family and friends to live a good life
and if everyone left this world with this attitude, then the world would
improve and so far this hasn't happened very often.
But I am getting away
from myself here because I want to finish what I have started. And that is
that people all over the world, no matter what society or culture they
have do not want war. Most people only want happiness, to be able to have
a good family life. To prosper, have good health and happiness for their
family and friends.
It is a natural thing
to want to be friendly and hospitable to everyone you meet.
It is unnatural to
want to fight someone, to want to sue a person or just being against
something. It is unnatural to fight your neighbors, to turn away from
someone in need. It seems natural to want to live longer. I many times
think that I would be much happier if I were in the spirit world, but when
I think of my two sons and daughter, I think that is a selfish thing.
I prefer to be here
now that I have that settled. Three years ago when I had open-heart
surgery I had a near death experience while under the knife.
I soon found myself in
an elevator; it was all white and a white mist surrounding everything. When I went to the top
and the door opened, I saw my Father, Mother and Sister standing in a
circle and conversing with one another. I yelled over to them and asked
them what they were talking about.
My Father walked over
to me and said they were talking about me. He said that today I was
supposed to join them but was told that I was too early I had to go back.
I told him I did not want to go back, I liked it here better and he
replied you have to go back. There are many people praying for you to
return, so you must go back. When I thought about my three kids (who are
actually all grown up) I immediately went back.
Sometimes we make the
right choice and sometimes we donít. I almost didnít and I would or may
have regretted it. I know that Lisa put my name on the healerís list on
the Internet and it worked. I had thousands or more people praying for me
and I did not know any of them. So Healing lists really work as long as
everyone on them prays for the person that is ill because my Father told
me to go back I did, but I could have stayed. The Healing force was real
and it caused me to stay alive even though sometimes I yearn to go back to
the spirit world, it was or is a place of great beauty, peace, and
tranquility. And whether you know this or not, we have more friends and
relatives there than we have here.
I journey from time to
time when out of my body to visit there because I find absolute peace
there with no physical desires, wants, or needs. While there we desire
nothing, no good health, no money, sex or pleasures. Everything we need is
there waiting for us without having to pay for it.
Dreaming is sort of a
mini Vision Quest. Because you can soul travel to anywhere you desire. You
can only go where you have knowledge. You cannot go if you know nothing of
the place you are thinking about. You cannot enter into a place that you
have no knowledge of even if someone has told you about that place. If you
have a teacher or Guru that prepares you for this world then you will have
some knowledge and you can go and explore it. Otherwise how will you know
about it? If a friend or relative tells you about a place and they have no
true knowledge of it, then you still donít know and cannot go. Not that it
is forbidden, it is always there waiting for you, but you have to evolve
to the place of your desires. It is a simple thing to go there but can
become the most difficult. It is like trying to find your way in the dark.
If you meet a teacher, then the teacher turns on the light and off you go.
So simple it is. By opening up to your desires of entering the spirit
world you are learning how to turn on the light, and light is knowing,
light is knowledge. If you turn on a light fixture in your house this is
not knowing, it is increased brightness. The true light is inside of your
head and it usually needs a teacher to turn it on, but it is possible to
turn it on your self. The secret is to inspire. Inspiration is God talking
to you; it is the pathway toward the light. You can have varying degrees
of light when you are inspired, so never be in a hurry, taking your time
is best. Be still and know says the Lord.
I want to explore this
further because I want everyone to have the opportunity to be in the
light. Most people have not even heard of this. Or if they have they
believe that only old souls are worthy of the light. Even when people die
they must enter the light and most people donít or wonít. They feel
unworthy no matter how good of a life they lived.
Most people deserve
In the late eighties I
lived in New Jersey while doing a TV Show called aptly, ďVision QuestĒ. While there I met a
couple from Parlin, NJ. And one night I was at their house with my friend
Lisa on a Saturday when the phone rang. It was Kimís father and he was
frantic. He said Kim your mother just fell down the stairs and injured her
head, I am waiting for the ambulance and it looks bad, please come home.
He lived in Westchester County NY and I told Kim to go on, Lisa and I will
watch her two boys for her and her husband Ron.
The next morning she
came and picked up her two boys and said that her mom was in a coma. I
reminded her that I am great at bringing people out of comas and she
replied it is too soon. Her fatherís friends and her relatives were on
their way to visit and it wouldnít look good. Her father at the time was
the number two man for the Associated Press and didnít believe in what I
do. She said please wait and she will take me in to see her mom.
The next day was no
better and she asked me to be patient it was still to soon for me to go to
the Hospital to see her mom.
The third day she told
me it was now too late, the doctors told her that her mom was brain dead
and they were going to pull the plug at nine am the next morning.
I got real mad at her
and told her that she must take me into the Hospital and she said she will
take me in around six or seven am secretly. She said her mom was in
intensive care and on life support.
When I arrived I told
her to make sure I would not be disturbed because I was going to hypnotize
Kim replied, ďHow can
you hypnotize someone who is in a coma?Ē And I said who is going to stop
me? She shrugged and said letís hurry up.
So I took her momís
hand and said Norma, it is Gordon, and I am going to hypnotize you. Donít
be afraid, I have your hand. I did hypnosis on her and told her that we
were going on a walk down through a meadow.
I said Norma (as I was
visualizing a meadow) looks at the beautiful green pastures, they are so
green and beautiful I repeated to her.
Then I said Norma,
look at the still small lake, it is like glass, letís run down to it.
Then Kim said in an
annoying voice, this sounds crazy, and I mentioned to her to be still and
I then closed my eyes
again and saw the still waters of the lake, and said, Norma! Look at the
escalator across the lake, it is made of glass or crystal, letís go over
there and I visualized her holding my hand as we ran over to the
escalator. We started to get on it and I stopped and said, Norma, I cannot
go on it with you, but you must go all the way to the top, and then you
will be able to come back and visit your husband and children.
Three days later was
the funeral in a Methodist Church and a woman pastor was giving the
eulogy. I was sitting behind Ron, Kim, her brother who was or is a doctor,
and her famous father.
All of a sudden you
could feel a cool breeze as though someone opened the doors, it blew down
the isle and the Pastor began thumbing her way through the Bible. She
exclaimed out loud, oh my God; Norma is here and wants me to read this
passage from the 23rd psalm.
The Lord is my
Shepherd, I shall not want, he makes me to lie down in Green Pastures by
the still waters, and he restores my soul.
As I walk through the
Valley of the Shadow of Death, I fear no evil, thy rod and thy staff
comfort me, surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the rest of my
life for I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever and ever.
Kim and her family
turned around and looked at me, she must have told them. But that doesnít
matter, what matters are that I learned something that day.
I learned that I could
help others into the light, into the world of spirit where only peace and
happiness reside. Not only I, but others as well, anyone that I tell this
too and show them how simple it is to guide loved ones into the light, it
opens many doors.
Sometimes I scan
papers and read the obituary and call on the people that are in there and
lead them to the light. What a great feeling it is to be able to do this.
I have many of my friends now doing this.
Whenever someone comes
to me for a reading and I see that someone close to them as crossed over,
I teach them to lead their loved ones into the light.
No one is exempt,
everyone is Godís child and everyone no matter what they did during their
life can enter the light. But of course people like Hitler or other serial
killers may have a much more difficult time to enter into the Kingdom of
They can enter if they
forgive themselves and know that the next life they live may be the
opposite of this life and they may have some debts to pay. I donít judge
them, anyone that needs to go into the light I help them regardless of who
they are. It is not up to me to judge; actually they become their own
judge and jury, I believe that God is the Father and God is the Mother. We
are his/her children and he/she will not punish us, God only loves us, we
punish ourselves through eons of time. We have been here for many life
times and keep coming back until we awaken.
Once we awaken we are
almost there, we have traveled the Universe of Time and we are now ready
to go home to the Universe of no Time.
Which is the home of
the Creator, the sea of Tranquility, the place of many Mansions?
My father once told me
before he died when he was very sick and in the Hospital that he dreamed
of going to a great place. He said he went into a house or mansion of
great white pillars. Once inside he could play music on his instruments he
was a musician, self-taught.
My father when he was
young was asked by Arthur Godfrey and several other bandleaders to come
and audition and play for them. He would go and get drunk instead, he was
afraid of failure; something I think has also came my way. I had several
chances of becoming famous, but always ran away from it. I am not sure if
it was the same reason or not, but I once did a show in New York and about
twenty people chased after me for my autograph.
I felt it was dumb for
them to want my autograph, I said I am not known or famous, you do not
need my signature, and they said if I was on TV then they wanted my
There are many
mansions and I believe this to be the reason. The reason I believe is that
each mansion is a degree of light. Everyone is on a different level of
knowledge; everyone has different ideas, different reasoning, and
different thinking. We are all the same but dwell in different mansions.
I believe that when
you go on a Vision Quest you go to your mansion. While there you begin to
explore the idea of you. The Idea of who are you, or what are you, why are
you here and where are you going. When you know that you will know your
mansion. You will become totally aware. Awareness is the key to life, the
key to knowledge or knowing.
So letís explore a way
of learning about this mansion you live or dwell in. I believe your
mansion is in reality your soul. It is the place you dwell inside of this
I believe that you can
find your way there by going on a Vision Quest.
Just go to a far away
place, take little with you. This way you wonít have any distractions.
Only take water and maybe some seeds or nuts to sustain you, but it is
better for you to fast. Prepare to be there for several days. The longer
the better and take something that can aid you in your quest for self.
When I did a Vision
Quest on top of a mountain in Colorado I had a vision that went like this.
I was sitting there
and all of a sudden a large Wolf jumped out of a big rock at me. I jumped
and then realized that he was imaginary. I then climbed on his back and
off we went.
We traveled through a
forest and then all of a sudden he was an Eagle and we were flying. We
flew over a place that I grew up in Northern New Jersey. Over a Lake and
then I remembered when I was young seeing an otter while out in a boat.
The otter kept diving and coming up on the other side of my boat. At the
time I did not know what he was doing, I thought he was just playing with
me. But the day of my quest he was showing me that he was not only
playful, but in harmony with the water and everything around him, even me.
He showed me to be
versatile and flexible and that I could flow with life and teach others to
do the same.
It was just one of
many experiences I have had doing Vision Quests. Each one is different and
each one is a lesson of lifeís experiences. I learned that all things in
nature, all animals could be in harmony with man and teach him true
lessons. Most people do not pay attention.
Now when I take people
on a Vision Quest I teach them how to tune into clouds, trees, sand, and
animals or insects. They all are there for us and all will teach us
Carver learned from a flower, he became at one with this flower and it
spoke to him in Godís Whisperings. Spirit will whisper to you ever so
gently and will lead you to the answers that you seek.
Since the beginning of
time man has went to the Wilderness to seek himself. To find lifeís
I do not practice the
way of the Native American, but have learned much from my friend Wallace
Black Elk. What I use is what I have learned from him, but not his
rituals. I have developed my own through spirit. I teach people to seek
spirit in all things, and then in oneís self. Spirit is there to aid us in
There are many
references to Vision Quests. To quest a Vision means you want to see who
you are, why you are here, and where are you going. In short you are
seeking; you have awakened to the fact that life is not what you were
So now you are seeking
and will continue to do so until you reach the Light. Then your seeking
will be over, you will no longer be just a victim, someone who leaves
things up to everybody else to do for you such as: Go to a Doctor and give
him your power. You give up your power whenever you turn things over to
someone else. Your mechanic, carpenter, dentist whatever or whomever but
when you see the light you begins to change inside and out. You begin to
take charge of your destiny. Whenever you seek it the light will come to
you. Soon you will start to meditate so that you can experience more
light. The experience will take you out of your body and lift you to the
highest of highs.
When you are out of
your body you have to remember to open your eyes. Otherwise you will only
have an idea that you were out of your body. When you open your eyes you
will become aware of many beautiful things. The sound of creation will be
there with you and flow through you. It is blissful and healing to let
this sound of sounds echo inside of your heart. You will never be the
You will be able to
travel to far away places without fear. You will be able to travel to
distant stars and planets. Great Suns exist far greater than our own. You
can even visit other beings, but usually you wonít because they may not be
recognizable to you as friendly. But if you do let yourself visit, you can
be taught many things from them, things that you are not aware of while
living here on this primitive planet.
While living here you
will realize that we are very primitive in our thinking. Our belief system
is archaic and you will wonder why we believe some of the things we
believe in. Our religious beliefs will fall away from us. We still will
believe in a creator and even the prophets that we follow from ancient
times, yet we will realize that the beliefs of old are just that. They
were useful during their times but not so useful today.
But I am not here to
say yes or no when it comes to our belief system, I am only forewarning
you that you will change your beliefs. You will not want the things you
now desire. Physical things will be come less desirous as well. The last
thing you will let go of is the sexual desire. It is the strongest within
our bodies. When you let go of that one, you will be totally enlightened,
but as long as you only have a partial enlightenment, you will still have
those physical desires. The only thing I can help you with then is to seek
Tantra is the Royal
path to enlightenment. It is a true path and I mention it in one of my
other books. I explain all about it so that you can have a complete sexual
satisfaction without having an orgasm, but with having the light.
The whole idea of
Tantra is to have sex without orgasm. If you can sustain being in a sexual
embrace for a long period of time without losing your sexual drive or
desire you will not have this orgasm but you will move the energy upwards
rather than out of your sexual organs when you have an orgasm.
Whenever you have an
orgasm you lose your energy and you become a slight bit tired. When you
move the energy upwards towards your head the energy will become ecstatic
rather than orgasmic.
You will feel this
energy flowing upward and when it hits your crown chakra you will have
enlightenment pure and simple.
This energy which lies
at the base of your spine is actually not your sexual energy at all. It is
an energy far more powerful than anything like that. It is the most
powerful energy in the Universe.
Most people are
totally unaware of this energy. Once experienced you will no longer desire
You will only desire
the light, and truth is, you can have Tantra merely by thinking it, you
will no longer need a partner. You will no longer seek a sexual partner,
you will become whole. You are whether you know this or not, that you are
both male and female or sexless. When you are in the spirit world you are
both and when you incarnate you are thrown out of balance by incarnating
into either a male or female body. You are never your body, you are a
spirit pure and simple both male and female or totally balanced. There are
countless books on Tantra and there is even a Yoga called Tantra Yoga. It
all has to do with energy.
But it seems I strayed
away from Vision Quest but I didnít, it is all part of your quest for
life, knowledge and enlightenment